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Nyx's avatar

This struck a chord with me. I’m still struggling thirty years in and find myself writing to survive and heal. I’ve uncovered almost too many parts of myself that I didn’t realize I’d buried. I’m getting to explore completely different facets of my own personality, but it’s coming at a time when I thought I’d feel more secure, both personally and financially.

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Matthew R. Manning's avatar

Thank you for sharing. It's definitely a beautiful but taxing struggle. And the ebbs and flows in security can be a real test of emotional and physical fortitude. But I think these radical investments in self are always worth it. Right? How invaluable to be unearthing so many parts of yourself. I know it's not always easy. But it'll ultimately make for a healthier and happier life. I trust that the rest will take care of itself. Would love to read and engage with any of your work! It's been wayyyy to long. Also working on a piece based on an old convo we had back in college. :)

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Kezia's avatar

I like how you articulated so much of what I’m coming to find is a common experience with writing.

I resonate so much with writing as a “craft” - particularly seeing it as a sculpting process. Thank you for putting words to that image.

I remember an editor at my first job telling me to “kill my darlings” and I brushed it off as her not appreciating my writing... I’m so glad I’ve grown since then!

I’m new to Substack and I came here via your comment in The Cookout Library. Also hoping to find new community - subscribed and cheering you on!

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Nyx's avatar

Even though the process has frequently been isolating and painful, I do think that the investment is worth it. It’s been a while since I last posted, but I keep a blog at candidwalrus.com! I also have an Etsy shop RightToMyHeart. I paint handmade ornaments/wall hangs that have become a much needed creative outlet. I’m glad to reconnect with you and the way you experience life!

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